The end of the semester has come, and its accompanying papers. I must well and truly admit that I am the Queen of Procrastination for lo I have but two days left to finish two papers. Neither of them are exceptionally difficult, it just means I must sit down and do them. Strangely my paper for anime class is going to be more difficult, I haven't much experience writing scholarly papers about film and a bit clumsy with my citations. However the topic, Cowboy Bebop, is one I like and I think that the fatalistic nature of the show will be easy enough for me to isolate, since I did that sort of thing for a couple of English papers before. I like Cowboy Bebop, and I find it exceptionally interesting that the heroes are so rarely shown as truly successful at their chosen endeavor. It is the second favorite anime in the US after Evangelion, but in Japan it ranks fairly low, it almost didn't make it on air.
I was being struck quite forcefully with panic this evening, I'm not ready to leave AIU. I would like to stay longer and am going to miss it, and of course Japan in general. I tell myself that there are good things waiting for me back in Albuquerque, I got accepted to teach my class and I'm going to get to do the Beowulf translation class, but I really am not ready to leave Japan. I know I have two more weeks here seeing all of the great sights, but it doesn't seem like enough. I'm really glad I just arbitrarily decided to make my return ticket for the 9th, while I don't like worrying about the logistics of traveling, I'm really happy to be doing it.
I am going to miss all of the little things, like my roommate. I really like Ayaka, but we don't really talk all that much. Living in such a small space it seems very important to keep boundaries and I don't like bothering her when she is trying to do school work. When we do have conversations it's kind of awkward because when it ends, or trails off, we are still in the same room and simply resurrecting the mental barriers. I can't really remember what it was like for me with my roommates when I lived in the dorms, but somehow it didn't seem so awkward. Maybe it's the fact that when we converse we both need to be paying full attention because of the foreign language utilization aspect. I will try to keep in touch with her via email once I go, as with my conversation partner, and hopefully the AIU students who will be in Abq will contact me. I like this nice little community of a school, even though it is frustrating at times.
Anyway I should go back to paper writing. Oyasumi
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